WHAT AM I DOING?!

I don't know what I'm going to ramble about.
Ramble...
Is a strange word.
It makes me think of grapes. If anyone could tell me why that is I would be most greatful.
I'm bored.
Really bored.
And it's not as if I've done anything worth writing about.
I know that only too well.
I feel quite sad now.
Damn.
I've been doing that alot lately.
Twice I've just broken down and bawled myself stupid.
Thankfully my marvellous Emmie friend has helped (THANKYOU FOREVER!!!) which is good.
But the whole experience is pretty unpleasant.
And I hardly know why I do it.
I just think about something I've put out of my mind and I geuss there's some kind of emotion attatched to it that's a billion times stronger than it was when I was thinking about it.
If that makes any sense.
Which I doubt.
It's hot in this room.
=(
I'll go open the door.
I opened the door.
I'm v.proud.
I'd like to thank my family *scoff* and friends...I just...couldn't have done it without you.
I felt your support so strongly when I opened the door.
I'm going to shut up now before I hurt myself.